not meant to be...
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
hello..well..yesterday..on monday-18.12.2006\
i went to has's place..we chatted a bit..then there was a phone call..has picked up the phone...then she quickly told me that i was running late..well..i rushed down to school and met up eith sam and ais..sorry gals..my watch..alamak..rosak...
aniwaz...met them and we entered the school..i was wearing my sweater..and covered my hair with the hoop...my covered was nearly blown because of one of the teacher who taught me english and geography..i hold the hoop tightly and ran next to sam... i think he knew that i was hiding something..but think he closes one eye...
we sat at our usual place..mmm and waited..not long after..saw akhim...i asked him which teachers were at the ava..it didn't seem that mr xxx was there...mr yyy wasn't there. i had expected there..but mr xxx..i somehow had the feeling that he was there... so i was so dissapointed...
then after that ais and i went to has's house..we sat underneathe the block..we chatted.. i must say that it was boring..as if nothing to talk about....
it was raining heavily... has mom came down..has offered an umbrella, but we declined...
well....it was fun because ais and i played in the rain..we were soaking wet...but it was so fun...
after that we went home....
today met Mardiana at tampiness..she was late...well..really late... waited for her..
she came..then she told me that mr xxx was at the ava.. he was there.. i was sad that i couldn't see him..i miss him alot.. and i really do want to see him so ever so much...
i couldn't help it but think only of mr xxx... well mardiana bought a stitch bear for has..and we went to has's place..but before that we went to print some pictures at the hawker centre near to our school..ex-schoolto be exact....
it was raining again..well we were wet even though there was an umbrella...
after that went to Has's place...okay lah..
i am not pleased with mardiana..i am not happy with her..because..she jugdes people.. i told her that recently i had a ghost encounter..u know wat..she said it was because i am not pioused enough..excuse me..ais is pious..but she still do see..many in fact... she is too straight forward..sis said it would be very difficult for her to live in the outside world..ppl wouldn't be pleased with that kind of attitude....
aniwaz..at 8.00 we went home.. i must admit that i was sad.. i know that IT WAS NOT MEANT FOR ME TO SEE MR XXX.. AT LEAST NOT NOW OR MAYBE NEVER...but i really do want to see him....
just entered the school portal..there was pictures during the N level thingy.. his picture was there.. i don't know why..and i just can't help it..that i cried..sis saw it..and i must say that she was mean... she always thinks that she is the best..her life stories are better.. mine is boring in my point of view..e.g when she talked to me abt her.. i would listen..but when it comes to me..she didn't even bother...
mr xxx I KNOW THAT WHAT I THINK OF US WAS WILFUL THINKING....
I KNOW THAT I AM NOT SIGNIFICANT TO YOU...
I GET IT....
MAY YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE HAPPILY....