SHOCKING Details that really saddened me....
Friday, December 15, 2006
well..went to Has's place at around noon... bought some of the stuff requested...it was a really hot day and i felt so dizzy..but the walking and all really decrrease the pain of the running nose...aaaaaacccchhhuuuuuu...
aniwaz..reach there and they told me that has vomitted last night....and her appetite has decreased... hope she do gets better.. anything else was normal...ate..rasul cooked..nice....has was sick..and she didn't smile as much anymore..not long after..she went to sleep...
i looked at her and wrote her a letter..in card format....
then at around 6.30p.m or so...Rasul and i went down to the nearest store....
I BOUGHT THE CARD with me...and he read it.. i told him that i had done many wrongs to has... he said he knows as has always talked to him about it... then he shared certain details abt it
HE TOLD ME THAT :
*HASLINA FINDS ME IRRITATING...
*THERE WAS THE TIME THIS YEAR THAT I WOULD WOKE UP IN THE
MORNING SO THAT I COULD MET HAS @ THE MRT...RASUL SAID THAT
THERE WAS THE TIME THAT SHE WAS ANGRY AT ME...WHEN I HEARD
THAT..I WAS SO SAD..
* THEN DURING SEC 3..ON HAS BIRTHDAY.. I BOUGHT HAS A MUG...
YOU KNOW WHAT..SHE TOLD RASUL..SHE SAID THAT I WAS LIKE BECAUSE
I GAVE HER THE MUG..THAT HAS MUST ALWAYS BE WITH ME... I WAS
SO DISSAPOINTED...
ALL THIS WHILE SHE THINKS OF ME THAT WAY....
I KNOW THAT THERE WAS MORE..BUT RASUL DID NOT WANT TO DISCLOSED IT TO ME...
WHEN I WAS IN THE LIFT WITH RASUL.. I JUST CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF..
I CRIED AND CRIED...
RASUL TRIED TO CALMED ME DOWN...
WE REACH BACK THERE...
I DIDN'T WENT IN TO HAS'S ROOM.. I JUST CAN'T FACE HER....
I WAS SHOCKED...
RASUL TRIED TO CONSOLE ME A BIT...THANKS
ANIWAZ.. I WASHED MY FACE..BUT I JUST CAN'T HELP IT.. I CRIED...
I PUT DOWN THE LETTER AT THE TABLE NEXT TO THE COUCH..AND COVERED MY FACE...AND LYING DOWN ON THE COUCH..
I COULD SEE HAS SHADOWS WALKING TOWARDS ME... SHE ASKED ME WHY..AND I SAID NOTHING...
THEN SUDDENLY HAS SAT DOWN IN FRONT OF THE COUCH...
THEN SHE SAID SOMETHING SUDDENLY.. I OPENED MY EYES AND SAW HER HOLDING THE LETTER..SHE WAS CRYING...
SHE KEPT PESTERING..ASKING ME WHY....??
I GAVE HER A REASON..MR XXX...
I CRIED SAYING THAT IT WAS BECAUSE OF MR XXX...
THEN AFTER THE TALK..I HAD A TUMMY ACHE AND WENT TO THE TOILET.. ON THE WAY TO THE TOILET..SYAFIQ SAID..KAKAK BALIK SEBELUM PAPA BALIK EH...
I WAS LIKE..ITS OKAY.. MY MIND WAS FILLED WITH THE SAD NEWS THAT I JUST DON'T CARE WHAT HER SIS THINKS....