feeling so depressed
Thursday, February 08, 2007
for the past few days, i've been so depressed and frankly saying i am having a major headache and i am overwhelmed with the incidents that have been happening for the past two days. i cut my left hand with a key and i really did not have intentions to do it.it was a moment. when i realised it hurt a few seconds later, i stopped. At that point of time, i was so pressurised. especially after the major headache ]s and arguement with sis.
i left the house and wandered off to where my legs was aking me. i think and think about the incident. i cried and cried. i don't even know why.
then, later i smsed sam and ais. i felt comfortable turning to them. thanks lots girls. but i really thank u sam. for the advises and the effort to call. thanks. because of wat u smsed me, i realised what i was doing. u were rite. i was hurting a loved ones. thanks....appreciate it.
sorry for making u gals worry.
anwaz...next day, my aunt desperately thought that i wanted to commit suicide, and even called me stupid. i was like what! but thanks to has sms and calls i can finally avoided her.....
aniwaz...today has sms me and said it was something urgent, so called her back and she told me that ais told her abt the incident abt me.
and so later had appointment wif has after helping mom at the stall. it has been 2 days in straight rows that i have helped parents there. and it was tiring....so tiring.
aniwaz, went home wif mum then after i cleaned myself out, went out. met has and later at the interchange.here and there. and later dad picked me up.
so sad..i nearly cried. dad is giving me his last $100 so that i could pay my skol fees. i was like what! then how is that dad going to spend his expenses. he said that its okay..it is his responsible....
aniwaz..i am having a major headache. my dad had misplaced my skol uniform. i was like what the hell. i am so furious, but i was too tired to handle the matter. then mardiana ms..thank god mardiana agreed to borrow me her skol uniform. well then its nite..i am so frustrated rite now..nitez.....