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Sunday, February 04, 2007
it has been quite some time since i blog. quess i've been busy.
well, the news of 0 level results is buzzing around that it would be out this friday, 9 of february. i have doubts about it since some says on other days too. so, just keep going to the school portal, and watch the news for information sake.
its not that i am being low in self confidence, but i've decided to further my studies at ITE simei. going to ite is not bad at all. we are still learning there.
i know that i've flunked my 0 levels.
i didn't really concentrate on learning, instead i would play around and have tons of fun. if only i could turn back time, but it is impossible.
so, i've decided my route. Nursing course at ITE simei. yes...
tats it...
school life is the best so far. being with friends and all. it interest me most what if i didn't met my best friends? what would have happen to me? what if.....
but you know what, i did met them. and that is fate. no one is perfect..yes...
but, i love them loads..thanks u gals for making me smile and cheering me up. i would remember the school times when we cry, laugh and play with each other. it was fantastic.
Infactuation.
well... i am a weak girl. i know that i am a very emotional and not as stable as normal average ppl. i like a teacher that most probably doesn't know my name. i was crazy abt him and i know gals that i made u gals miserable with my silly mood swings.
anyways, i must admit that i am not over him. i can't stop thinking abt him. i would remember those times when i saw him. i then realised that i had hurt him in many ways. e.g..he was so mad that he bit his lower lips, because i avoided him, and i make sure he knows abt him. i might be one of the reason to his massive problems.
i was really sad and dissapointed that he did not attend my graduation. so really sad that i cried and cried at the hall itself. i just couldn't stop it. knowing that i'm not abled to see him again really made me depressed, but now...i'm just moving forward. i may not know when i would see him again. maybe never, but i know that god has plans for me.
being depressed abt him made me crazy for a moment, but then, a teacher was there. even though he is committed, i just played on. just for the ride, but i know my limitations, abd i know his too. he made me smile and thank you for that.
i love my family alot..sis said family stands for:
F: FATHER
A: AND
M: MOTHER
I: I
L: LOVE
Y: YOU
AND YEAH, I THINK IT HAS THE MEANING THERE.
love you, ibu and ayah,for taking care of me and tolerating with my nonsense.
love you, kakak huda for making me smile,sharing my sorrows and vice versa, and making me happy.
love you, my nieces and nephew for making my time with you a marvellous and happy journey in life.
love you, haslina,samirah, aisyah and rafida for making me happy and advise me on my silly and hillarious problems, and tolerating me with my blues...
love you, brothers, for caring even though we are not close, but yeah..thanks
love you,sis in law for caring too
love you, nenek for your laughter and jokes
love you, my infactuations for making me have the feel of the wonderfulfeeling of loving someone...