scary scary moment
Thursday, March 08, 2007
yesterday was the most scariest moment that i've been through. i slept at in mom's room while dad slept in my roo on the floor. it was plain selfish of me not to put down the thin mattress that i use on my double deck bed. since dad was sleeping in my room, i bunk in with mom.so, yesterdae, i woke up at 5 and asked dad to wake up. he continued sleeping. for the next half an hour, it didn't seem to work. i forced him up, and he tried to get up. i thought that he only had a backache due to the way he slept, since it was on the floor. i tried to help him, but he couldn't stand. he actually stand up, then fall down and hit his head. i was like, what's wrong with dad.i called mom, and dad tried again to stand up, but still he couldn't. he seemed to be in a daze and it was freaking me out. i was worried. he's not like this usually.aniwaz, sis woke up and too helped dad up, still his legs looked goowee....and we helped him on the bed. he went down flat. mom was already looking pale and called 2nd bro whose room was just next to mine. he panicked.so.... dad then was talking nonsensical.he asked mom where was his mother who had passed on for more than 10 yrs ago.....he even peed on his pants... i felt so sorry for him, but what can i do....mum kept asking dad wheather dad wants the ambulance to come. how cn dad answer that. he can barely talk to us properly. the 3 of us urged mom to call. sometimes i just don't understand mum...instead of calling the ambulance, she went and call 1st bro. no offence what can he do? his not a doctor, his a counsellor.aniwaz, 2nd bro called the ambulance after mom's conideration.and so the ambulance came. i still don't understand the system. the ambulance came half an hour later. i was like wat!!!!aniwaz,mom went to changi general hospital with dad, while the 3 of us took a taxi.we went there and saw our parents
.dad seemed somewat like childish in apperance and i do sympathize with him. his usually dressed up in a more smart way. aniwaz..only tp visitors and i let 2nd bro in because reality check, that's his favourite child.aniwaz, i was surprised that cik ahmad came. so fast. followed by 1st bro.aniwaz, dad was put in the observation room and he seemed to talk and repeating what he said. asking the same question. e.g cik ahmad. everytime he saw cik ahmad, he would repeat what he already ask or told.aniwaz, later, sis and cik ahmad went out of the observation room. we broke the rules of having more than 2 visitors.i too went out and saw cik alleh, and then saw cik ana.alrite, then i entered again while the rest of them went to eat breakfast. dad talk alrite by then. no craps.aniwaz, when i entered the nurse told me that dad would be discharged and i wanting to be a good girl helped out with tha paperworks and medication.everything was settled and mom was worried about cik ton and asked me to helped her out. okaylah, how tired i was, i still did.and so we were in 1st bro's car and before heading to our house, they dropped me at mom's canteen. it wasn't as tiring as usual, but i found out that's mom has some character problems and hurt people around her. but she has a nice heart though, it's just the words that she used..haiz...wat can i do????aniwaz, reached home and nenek was there. frankly saying, nenek and dad are very close even though nenek is mom's mother.its kinda funny...dad was sleeping and it's really sad to see him in that condition. how life can be fragile, and how old you are, u're still as innocent as a baby in nature....aniwaz....dad doesn't have the appetite to eat and that was like really amazed me....dad usually eats alot....at night, i was giving dad medication, and stupid of me to give dad the wrong dosage. it was silly as i asked dad what was the tablet he was supposedly to take. he said this and that and so i gave him..then mom told me that dad is to take only 1 white tanlet...i alamak....aniwaz....dad had to move his sleeping
place from sis bed to his. i helped him out, and he put his head to mine. i was glad though..i felt loved....hehei slept in parents room...just took my mattress and put in on the floor....today woke up, and dad wanted to help us in the canteen and we obviously said no...and he kinda looked stress. it was tiring helping mom out at the canteen, and i constantly had contact with dad. good to know he's okay, but he kept asking if we want him to help out..his voice seemed different, obviously he's still unwell.. dad seemed to be popular. everyone was asking. reached home and that is alright but he said he felt rather weak. get well soon dad.. i love u...rite now, mom and sis are at johor paying some bank debts.so wish me luck, tomorrow dad and i ae going to the medical checkup at SATA...for the nursibg course
such a shock
Thursday, March 01, 2007
i must admit that i'm very very very shocked with the interview results. it was a success.. i'm so amazed by this. yesterday, it seemed reall bad. the interviewers seemed weird. they didn't look at my testimonials. so its sometin. thank god....yes. only left with the other stepping stone-the medical examination. everything is scaring me. i'm so scared to go to this whole new adventures. i'm terrified. i'm not prepared for this at all. aniwaz, i made a promise to god that i would fast for 3 daes + 1 dae of fasting hutang.... so 4 daes yes, i can do it.....wish me luck that i'll get through wif the medical exams.thanks to the people wif ur support....sure knows that my family are so happy