if i could write a letter to you...
Sunday, October 01, 2006
to this dearest someone..if i could write a letter to you...i would writedear mr xxx,i would lke to tell you that i have been carrying a torch for you all this while. and i love you so much, and i would die for you. i know you don't want to be in this kind of situation, and i am sorry for that, i just can't help it. i know it is not your fault, but it is just that fate gave me this feeling for you, but he didn't gave you the feelin for you. i am really fond of you....and i want you, love you, and starts a family with you,but i know that i couldn't have what i want with you. but i want to tell you that seeing yoy, smile especially, gave me this joyous feelings. i do admit that i am quite selfish, quess cause i'm young. please forgive me for the bad things i did to you, especally if you are angry and offended. e.g when you were eating i made a disgusting sound, and you gave me this shocking look...i'm sorry, i was a bit jealous.....you will always be in my memory. the tears i cried for you is WORTH IT. you are the special someone that is in my heart. because of you, i got over this +++++ jerk. because of you, i had the opportunity to feel the joyous feelings and i appreciate that. thanks for being a part of me. i hope we could end good. i love you _________________. you are the special someone that has grabbed my heart and also broken it. i don't expect you to mend it, but don't keep steeping on it. i love you, i love you, and i will always remember you._n_h_i_ 2006if only i could write to you.....but i don't want to cause any more problems for you. i know you are not that well. i know you took medi cert for few weeks, but hope you o.k...
i'm still surviving.... and manage.... hope my last wish came true in this place.. so ps made this last wish of me in this place for me come true. then if we must part than be it....
its been a week, and i am so miserable....but i should stay strong. be the girl i used to be, strong and doesn't get emotionally hurt easily...